Billy's leaving today (don't know where he's going).
Holds his head in disgrace (he can't escape the truth).
He knows the price that he's paid.
He admits that it's too late to admit that he's afraid.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes his soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but he's always open,
To relive time in his mind.
Oh Billy.

Billy's leaving today (don't know where he's going).
He's got lines on his face (they tell the story of his pain).
He accepts it's his fate.
He admits it took too long to admit that he was wrong.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes his soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but he's always open,
To relive time in his mind.
Oh Billy.

Once he was a lover sleeping with another.
Now he's just known as a cheat.
And he wish he'd had a mirror; looked a little clearer.
Seen into the eyes of the weak.
Tomorrow comes. Sorrow becomes his soul mate.
The damage is done. The prodigal son is too late.
Old doors are closed but he's always open,
To relive time in his mind.
Oh Billy.

warning signs of anorexia.

Do you know anyone who may have an eating disorder?

There are many medical risks associated with anorexia. They include: shrunken bones, mineral loss, low body temperature, irregular heartbeat, permanent failure of normal growth, development of osteoporosis and bulimia nervosa

The disorder is thought to be most common among people of higher socioeconomic classes and people involved in activities where thinness is especially looked upon, such as dancing, theater, and distance running.

---Dramatic weight loss

---Refusal to maintain normal body weight

---Disturbed sense of body, misperception of shape or size

---Frequent statements about being "fat" or "feeling fat" when not overweight or especially despite weight loss

---Anxiety about gaining weight or being "fat"

---Viewing weight loss as an impressive achievement that is a sign of extraordinary self discipline

---Viewing weight gain as an unacceptable failure of self control

---Preoccupation with weight, food, calories, fat grams, and dieting

---Excessive weighing of self or measuring of body parts

---Persistently using a mirror to check body parts

---Refusal to eat or to eat certain categories of foods, such as carbohydrates

---Denial of hunger

---Development of rituals around eating, such as excessive chewing, eating food in certain order, counting bites

---Consistent excuses to avoid meals or situations involving food

---Concerns about eating in public

---Excessive, rigid exercise program, the desperate need to burn off calories after eating

---Withdrawal from usual friends or activities

---Increasing focus on food and weight and diet so much that this a primary part of life

---Refusal to talk about eating behaviors or defensiveness or anger at the topic being brought up

---Development of depression, social withdrawal, irritability, insomnia and if sexually active, a reduced sex drive

---Menstruation stops

---Complaints of constipation, abdominal pain, cold intolerance

---Dryness of skin



http://www.mamashealth.com/anorexia.asp

http://library.adoption.com/self-esteem/warning-signs-of-anorexia/article/3184/1.html/

shes alive!

sup kids? long time no update, everyone thinks im dead right?
nope, still alive and kicking, probably bad news to some of you.
anyways, i havent been doing much of anything besides working everyday, its sucks but it's still $250 paycheck every week so it's worth it i guess. :-/
ive had a couple of fun weekends but i wont go into it because people will start bitching because they don't want to hear about it. whatev ya know?
anywho... bobble j is cool, he'd be cooler if he called me though. ha. whatev. most the time i have something (one) else on my mind anyways.

in other news, ive dropped 8 pounds. its all those drugs i do ya know? at least, thats what my friends will tell you because to them im just an addict that doesn't do anything if it doesn't involve getting fucked up, thats cool though i guess.
which... on the subject of "friends" Fuck Kim VanHoek.
i was super pissed at her, then i got over it, and now she's finally getting over it and she wants me to forgive her!
Fuck that!
now i remember why i was pissed at her in the first place!
friends don't leave friends stranded at midnight with no car and no place to go.

okay kids, that my life, i probably won't put another real update for another month or so.
tty then!
rachel

many men (wish death upon me)